pictures of Egypt

God carries me. every day.

He's poured out His mighty love upon me beyond what I deserve. He is daily showing me how much He loves me and how much I need Him. Incredible doesn't begin to cover some of the times I've had with Jesus. I know I don't deserve it and yet, He's there again...bringing strength and love and peace.

Sometimes, I just miss the "old days." Especially the old Verity days, you know? I miss the studying. the building. my job. my room. but mostly, the people... Verity people become your adopted family. People you see every day. People you get to know pretty well. and in some cases....very well. I went from seeing and talking to them every day, to....not. Hard to swallow sometimes.

I love this song by Sara Groves. It feels so incredibly true sometimes.... like today.

Painting Pictures of Egypt

I don’t want to leave here
I don’t want to stay
It feels like pinching to me either way
The places I long for the most
Are the places where I’ve been.
They are calling out to me like a long lost friend.

It’s not about losing faith,
It’s not about trust.
It’s all about comfortable
When you move so much.
The place I was wasn’t perfect
But I had found a way to live
It wasn’t milk or honey
But then neither is this...

I’ve been painting pictures of Egypt,
Leaving out what it lacked.
The future seems so hard
And I want to go back.
But the places that used to fit me
Cannot hold the things I've learned
And those were roads closed off to me
While my back was turned.

The past is so tangible
I know it by heart
Familiar things are never easy to discard
I was dying for some freedom
But now I hesitate to go
Caught between the promise
And the things I know....