His thoughts > my thoughts

I feel like if I could get a glimpse into the spiritual realm right now, I'd see a whirlwind of activity. Not necessarily all about me, but definitely around me.  It's not like my life is all that crazy, it's just that I feel this rush of activity somewhere I can't see... There are days when the feeling is so thick, so intense, I glance up....half expecting [fully hoping] to see angels above, around, all over.

Picture this. You're on a really long road trip. Hours and hours. You're having a blast, listening to your favorite music, chilling out with friends, and having amazing conversations...It's super fun. And then...you're almost there. So close. The last fifteen minutes are torture.  That's kinda what I feel like right now in regards to whatever God is doing in my life.

Jesus is up to something. His promises resound over and over in my head. This morning as I was thinking about that "premonition" feeling I've been having, I had a little revelation.

My thoughts are not His thoughts.

I have expectations. Ideas. Dreams...things that I desperately want and just assume He's going to do for me... but He knows me better than I know myself. As I told a good friend yesterday, "...we know what we want, and we think we know what we need, but God actually does know what we need. We can't fight that. He's better at life than we are."

My dreams for myself are dust compared to His dreams for me.

I just want to know what He's thinking. All the time. About anything and everything. I want more than basic. Sure, I could survive on basic. But basic won't cut it. Not anymore.

I want
...to be utterly distracted with His presence.
...to have to stop everything I'm doing because of His closeness.
...to be in constant and continual communication with Him.
...to want nothing but Him, for He is all I need.

give me grace.